sorta need to vent

[lillfroboy]

me neither man

[MagMan5446]

Man I almost teared up. I haven't done that since my cousin got killed a few years ago.

Sorry man. Keep ya head up.

[-J�ker-]

froboy sounds like jason and sarah jumped a little late im feal for you to, but why did muike get charged with mansluahter? he didnt force them to jump.... whj did yo get 3 years probation and those fines? all you did was jump out of a jeep going about 100mph im kinda confused and saddend by your story

[banzaimf]

Hey Tyler, I've had to go through the same thing, Nothing you can say or do will make it go away. I have walked in your shoes man. I go by Jeremy's grave every year when I go down for X-mas. Every year his family has a wreath or a small christmas tree or something that they left their for him. I miss him today.

The last one is pretty much how I feel now, after he's been dead for 10 years.

Ted

I love you Jennifer, Troy, and Jeremy.


_______________________________________
Locked in the passages of your mind
What was your last thought?
Why did you do what you did?
Why couldn't you stop and think?
The pain I feel seems sounfair,
but I realize that I wasn't fair.
Someone to talk to
Maybe this was what you needed
I'll never know
I'm sorry
I'm oh so sorry


Jeremy
You've been dead almost three years
nothing I could say could change that
As I sat looking at your grave
I knew it was too true
I wonder why god felt you must go
and I must stay
I'm older now, more mature, and sadder


put the gun to his head
pulled the trigger
then was dead
life so short
yet so long
for him to die
what went wrong
in our lives
comes and goes
eveyone
someone knows
when lows hit
what to do
ain't worth it
at least to you


Why
Why did you decide to die?
questions spinning in my mind
insanity I cannot fathom
pain to intense to bear
your suicide is so pointless
a reason unreasonable
hurt so hurtful
you leave me here to ponder
was it right???
NO, it's wrong!!
maybe
I sit here and wonder
could I have stopped you?
I feel
it was my responsibility
as a friend
I let you down
I let everyone down
you let me down
I think
I don't know
no answers come to mind
nothing comes to mind
I'm numb


Another life gone to waste,
A bitter fruit that I must taste
Forgotten memories of long ago
what more would have come I'll never know
another death, tragedy
spinning into infinity


rage runs through my body
fills my mind with insanity
not understanding why
he felt he had to die
his death and others hurt me so
because I never want them to go
2 suicides and a wreck
these young souls against the deck
why they had to die I'll never know
but their deaths fill me with woe


I feel so cold inside
so dead
a piece of me died with each of them
when will the pain go too great for me to handle
what will I do?
where will I go?
what are my options?
`

The thing that hurts the worst is that sometimes all I can remember of you is the pain I feel that you're gone, this makes me hurt even more, you don't know how much I would love to call you.... even if it were only to have you call me an a-hole...

[MrMag]

all i can say is dont get down on yourself. my dad died almost ten years ago when i was six. he didnt commit suicide, but he got aids from a blood transfusion. celebrate his life and dont morn his death. those are the best words of advice i can give you

[Paintballer86]

I am very sorry for you loss. I admire your strenth, becuase I do not know what I would do if in that situation.

[magman007]

I am sorry. It hurts to loose a good friend, if there is any thing you need, any thing you need at all, feel free to ask me. you can contact me at [email protected], if you want to call, write, or just talk, im here for you man. you wil be ok

[EsPo]

i have almost the opposite situation as rhetor. i didnt know her until the year be4 she died.....
im 12 years old and its the first day of middle school, i walk down the halls, a stranger to everyone i see. i get into home room and imediately peeps start makin comments about my shoes, my shirt and my pants, all of which were geared twoard the skating world. as the trendy kids continue to make fun of me, she walks over and starts talkn to me as if i was just like anyone else... this was brittany willz, willz as we called her my best friend. at every dance we danced together for the same song. the next year and a half me and brit spent a lot of time 2gether, to much to talk about. while on the way home from gettiin a christmas present for her brother on december 14 2001 brittany and her single mother were killed my a driver who was drunk and had taken morphine also. her mother died instantly, but she had to suffer, she lived for a few hours after the crash. imagine lying there and seing your own mother dead lying on the ground. the next day at school, there was supposed to be a dance, instead it was a memorial for brittany willz. there were no classes, instead guidance groups who made posters for brit and thought of all of the good things to remember about her. she was never mean to anyone. every dance, i cry my eyes out, just as i am now, on that song we used to dance to. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHH


thank you very much rhetor for making this post...
Brittany Sharon Willz... B.S.W.
the name of my paintball team
gone but not for gotten

[BarTools]

Rhetor your my hero, sorry man

[nastymag]

i wish i could do somthing to help man ...
one of my freinds dad just recently killed himself .
remember all the good times you guys had.

[Emagster]

whoa.....I know their is nothing we I or we or anyone else can do to help you out here but give you a few kind words. I'm truly sorry. I dont know what I would do if someone close to me died. Everyone of my friends is like a brother to me and when ever something happens t them I always ger scared. as soon as their fne I always laugh at them for being so stupid. but for those few moments...I'm always really scared. I hate to say so...but the saying "time heals all" is not always true. What happens is WE forget. We forget how much fun we had witht hem, what pain we went thorugh with them, all the jokes we said, all the plans we made and never did. Time doesn't heal...we forget, and like you said...NEVER FORGET. I would rather hurt my entire life then forget about all the things I've done with my friends. But do go on, live your life. Dont let this bring you down to nothing. but at the same time...reflect. I'm trully sorry for your loss. but just remember..time does go on and so must you.

[ntn4502]

im am very sorry for what happened, may god help you through this