An update on my life...if anyone cares...(kinda interesting)

[paintballer20]

Hey Rooster, also pills don't fix everything, they just trick but you still fell sad and suidical or whatever sometimes. For me when I felt like that, it was during this last school year, I had great friends, but my parents were gettitng a divorce and it was awfull. The only thing that helped me was getting away from what I thought was the source of the problem, my dad, so now I live with my mom and im fine, happy as can be. So what I think you need to do is just start over socially, earse that girl from your memory, forget about her, and either stop what your doing with alchol and drugs, or get new friends. Trust new I've seen with drugs and alchol can do to a sad, angry, aldult man, and, you don't want it. Get friends who care about enough to stop you from doing that kind of stuff to yourself, or atleast get friends who fake intrest in it, hey, its better than no intrest at all. O and also, if you do happen to get a shrink, I find talking about it does help, but get a shrink you like, and not one that doesn't understand what you have been through, find someone who cares. O and talking with your parents wouldn't be all that bad, find the one you think cares most about you and would understand better, and not just give you a cold shoulder but an outlet for your pain, and angst. You can get out of that hole, you just have to want to, you have to try. Hey if you want more help you can PM me, or if you just want to chat hell I don't care PM just to tell me you read my post and it sucked, just do something to help yourself.

[magman007]

Look Rooster, get off your high hat, and have some FN compassion for this guy. He was one of the first Aoers i saw post, and in his previous part of his life, he was truely a great kid. I enjoyed reading his posts, and he seamed like a genuine good guy. Just recently i found my self wondering what ever happened to him, and i am quite sad to see that it has turned out this way.

Infinity, i truely understand partly what you are going through. I for one am Fat. Il admit it. And i just play it off. I never have turned to drugs or drinking, i just repress everything, then let it out every once and a whil;e. It is a hard thing. I have been used by filthy holes as miscue puts it, and i have ZERO self esteem.


I for one would like to offer a helping hand. I would like to give you the oppertunity to talk with my self. Contact me on aim or any other messenger service, as you can see i subscribe to all of them, and i will be here to talk to you. I am going away to italy tomorow, but once i return, i want to offer you my helping hand.

I will listen to you, and i dont pass judgement. I want to help you turn your life around. You are a good kid inside, i truely believe that. So please, take the time, and get some help. ok buddy?

[Army]

Infinity, I'm your bud, right? Been with you here since you first came to AO, right?

OK, sit down.

Since you already can catagorize what is problematic in your life, start eliminating those things that bring you down:

Smoking dope will do NOTHING but continue to mess up your person...stop it.

Drinking will do NOTHING but continue to mess up your person...stop it.

Living the "street people" lie ('nobody loves us, we are society's throw aways') will continue to mess up your person...stop it.

Thinking this stupid little girl wants anything to do with you, other than to mess up your person, is continuing to lie to yourself...stop it.

Get your head on straight first, by really believing that you are what matters in your life, not what others think of you. Nobody won over any friends by being what the other person wants you to be. Friends accept you for what and who YOU are, and for no other reason.

Go back to school. Nobody ever hired a dumbass dropout for his personal management skills. Get your grades up where you had them, since you ARE capable of productive thinking, and go to college.

DO IT! START RIGHT NOW AND PULL YOUR HEAD OUTTA YOUR BUTT Stand up straight and face reality, then kick it in the teeth. Only YOU can decide if you want to have a great future, or wind up in the gutter totally anonymous and forgotten.

Love ya buddy, but nobody can help you better than you can.
Dave

[MadChild]

maan i know how you feel...might not be as bad as your story but my best friend recently moved away. she was the sister i never had. i still cant get over it and ive been really depressed too...like modest mouse says: "We'll all float on ok"

Rooster is a jack*** depression is hard to snap out of and pills dont fix **** so stop posting you have no idea what your talking about

[Chipper]

I feel very little pity for you.

Heres my best advice...

SHAPE UP AND PLAY SOME PAINTBALL!

Amen.

[OysterBoy]

I feel very little pity for you.

Heres my best advice...

SHAPE UP AND PLAY SOME PAINTBALL!

Amen.

How'd they let you in???

I can sympathize, I'm 14, depressed, 'pothead' with low self esteem and no money. BUT, all I have to do is realize I could be doing much worse, and that usually helps shape me up a little. Just tough it out, but don't go half assed. Some things you cant shake slowly, to quote Jerry Seinfeld 'One motion, like a bandaid, RIGHT OFF'. I've been worse, but I'm doing alot better now. Get some new friends, I did and am happy I did. Block out the people who try to bring you down, and dump that hoe, trust me I know what you were goin thru, except my 'Anna' nearly died from alcohol poisoning. Haven't talked to her since, once again, I'm glad for it.

[CaptaiN_JacK]

where are your parents at when all this is happening? my god, are they that ignorant that they cant tell that youve been smoking weed all the time and drinking and smoking? if i EVER came home drunk, high, or smelled like smoke, my parents would would ground me forever. it sounds like not only you need to shape up, but your parents too. not that its their fault that youre like this, but now its their problem to stop it. broken homes

[MrMag]

"Alot of people cant help it, its a neurological thing, once your in depression its very hard to get out of it."

So take some pills. I thought this guy actually had something serious wrong. This is a bunch of 90210 bullcrap.

Hey rooster, why dont you get the hell out of this thread.

Infinity- I'm really sorry about all of what you have been going through. My best suggestion would be to get on some sort of med. My friend is going through this sort of thing right now cept he is a total jock who everyone likes, but can't seem to stop thinking that everything sucks and that life isn't worth living. I don't know why it happens, but the chemicals are unbalanced in your brain and it really messes you up. There are people out there that care, and girls are just manipulative whores. You should just tell this Anna girl off and then come hang out in Marin with me.

[coolcatpete]

You say no one cares well AO cares.
Pete

[Chipper]

I just find it hard to have pity for someone who screws up thier life by drinking to much and smoking weed. I'll admit this girl whom he is supposedly "in love with" is whats causing it, but that can be fixed. He just has to face that he would be better off with out her, you can't "love" people who are going to bring you down. Thats not what I believe "love" to be.

And yall no one of the best meds is paintball. Once I got really stressed from a bunche of stuff so I went and played paintball. Next thing I know I'm smil'in. Nothing beats being able to shoot a person and then shake thier hand and laugh.

[coolcatpete]

We are all saying he should stops those things however it helps someone who is depressed if you show compassion. And well your not chipper. I will take the advice in your sig and just say you are wrong.
Pete

[Restola]

InfinatyBPS, you are so stereotypical that it hurts to read. You're depressed...you're insecure...you're friends are making bad choices.... You are exactly like everyone else. Everyone feels that way at your age.

I'm going to be direct because you need it: you're a doormat and a drugged up loser. If I was standing in front of you I would punch you in the teeth. Unless you turn your life around, I look forward to seeing you on an episode of Cops.

The chances of you turning around...almost zero.

[Chipper]

InfinatyBPS, you are so stereotypical that it hurts to read. You're depressed...you're insecure...you're friends are making bad choices.... You are exactly like everyone else. Everyone feels that way at your age.

I'm going to be direct because you need it: you're a doormat and a drugged up loser. If I was standing in front of you I would punch you in the teeth. Unless you turn your life around, I look forward to seeing you on an episode of Cops.

The chances of you turning around...almost 10! .

Much better, refer to above, play some paintball, forgot drugs and drinks for a day, even a week if you can manage it, then go get new friends who play alot of paintball so you can play with them.

[CaptaiN_JacK]

after reading this thread, ive concluded that Friendly Corner is the next Small Talk.

the kid's bordering on suicide and you guys are kicking him while he's down. way cool! going against popular opinion, this is NOT the way kids his age deal with problems. yes, they feel alone and unwanted and ugly etc, but most dont deal with it by boozing every night and smoking pot every day. rooster, some of your comments in this thread shows that you must be a 12 year old kid that wants everybody to think hes older. 14 year olds shouldnt be doing drugs as much as he does. its NOT normal. he HAS a problem. he NEEDS help. he doesnt need some people with below average self esteem laughing at his problems so they feel better about their crappy lives.

[coolcatpete]

after reading this thread, ive concluded that Friendly Corner is the next Small Talk.

the kid's bordering on suicide and you guys are kicking him while he's down. way cool! going against popular opinion, this is NOT the way kids his age deal with problems. yes, they feel alone and unwanted and ugly etc, but most dont deal with it by boozing every night and smoking pot every day. rooster, some of your comments in this thread shows that you must be a 12 year old kid that wants everybody to think hes older. 14 year olds shouldnt be doing drugs as much as he does. its NOT normal. he HAS a problem. he NEEDS help. he doesnt need some people with below average self esteem laughing at his problems so they feel better about their crappy lives.

Thanks man I was about to have the same post. Dot kick him while he is down, lend him a hand.
Pete